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The Colorado Christian Writers Conference will be held in a couple weeks in Estes Park, in the Rocky Mountain National Park. I have been attending for a dozen years as faculty member, speaker, and invariable participant in the great opportunities for fellowship and worship.<\/span> As I prepare for the conference, I\u2019m reminded of the time just before my first conference when I didn\u2019t feel like I was really ready to go. I didn\u2019t know if I was a writer, and I felt guilty squandering our money just for a fun trip. Our finances were tight at the time, and I wondered if I were being a good steward of the money God gave us.<\/p>\n As the days before the conference ticked off, my anxiety grew. I rushed to get projects finished, but life happened<\/span> and I seemed to get little accomplished. I would be presenting projects for critiques by professional writers and editors \u2013 work I was not yet proud of, writing not yet perfectly matched with my plans and expectations. <\/p>\n I couldn\u2019t figure out how to be perfect. How to impress the editors and agents with whom I would be meeting. How to know ahead of time exactly what they wanted to see and hear. How to avoid the horrible experience of embarrassment or failure. <\/p>\n In all honesty, though I didn\u2019t see it at the time, my anxiety boiled down to pride<\/span> \u2013 not being able to control what others saw and felt about me. All my life I had been an over-achiever, because my self-worth was totally wrapped up in my performance and the affirmation of others.<\/p>\n The excitement I first felt when I registered slowly dissipated, replaced by dread and insecurity. I couldn\u2019t sleep. Couldn\u2019t concentrate. Couldn\u2019t write. <\/p>\n Finally, I talked to my husband about my situation. \u201cI\u2019m so sorry, honey,\u201d I said. \u201cI feel like I\u2019m wasting our precious money. I wonder if I could cancel and get a partial refund.\u201d<\/p>\n With warm eyes, my sweet husband just smiled in his special reassuring way. \u201cNo, you\u2019re not going to cancel. I don\u2019t care if all you do is go sit under the mountains and spend time with Jesus. That<\/span> would be worth every penny we\u2019re spending!\u201d<\/p>\n Wow! What a relief. The pressure to perform was off. I was going on a vacation with my precious friend and Savior, Jesus. With His help, I would do the best I could\u2014and that would be enough. I could trust Him to walk beside me and show me His plan for my writing. <\/p>\n Each year, I remember those wise words from my husband. And each year, I consciously take time to lay aside the pressure of \u201cbeing ready\u201d and focus on my time with God. For when I turn my eyes to Him, the things of earth truly do grow strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace.<\/p>\n Hebrews 12:1-2a urges us to \u201cthrow off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith.\u201d<\/p>\n For me, the sin of pride had colored my world, entangling my thoughts, feelings, and actions. Once I consciously threw that off<\/span> and turned my eyes back to the Lord, my world instantly brightened. Energy to run the race God had for me returned. Grace allowed me to accept my imperfections and, instead, glory in His strength and guidance. <\/p>\n As you listen to the following song, Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus,<\/span> take time to allow God\u2019s grace and presence fill your soul, transforming your thoughts, feelings, and actions by the renewing of your mind. For information about the Conference, go to<\/span> Colorado Write His Answer<\/a><\/p>\n + + +<\/p>\n
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\nI will miss it this year because of family matters in Ireland, whence I write this week. Great regrets. Ironically, if circumstances permit, I might attend, the very same days, the International Literature Festival (formerly the Dublin Writers Festival) in one of the world\u2019s great literary cities. \u2026but it is nothing like CCWF for Christian creators. I will miss the inevitable mountain-top experiences!<\/span>
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\nMy good friend, writer Barbara Haley writes here about doubts and fears common to all writers \u2013 all creative people, even the most successful professionals \u2013 at times. She is our guest writer today.
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\nIn a few weeks, I will be attending the Colorado Christian Writers Conference for my 16th year. Same location, but a new inspirational and informative experience every year.<\/p>\n
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\nThat even \u201caccomplished\u201d creative people are beset by such feelings, ironically should reassure the nervous neophyte. Yes, we are in the same boat. Yes, we are \u201cnaked before the world\u201d with our often tentative efforts. \u201cWho are WE to presume that what we write [or paint, or compose] will interest anyone else?\u201d<\/span>
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\nThere are several answers to that question. As Bach did, we write as unto the Lord, and we seek to please Him first; other results follow. After that: write to please yourself; if you know your subject, and know your target audience, you will succeed. Solicit the opinions of fellow creators; share the pains and joys; be encouraged and be an encourager. Venues like the Colorado Christian Writers Conference are pure gold.<\/span>
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\nSometimes having a \u201cmountain-top experience\u201d can even include spending part of a week on one of the most beautiful mountain ranges in the world.<\/span><\/p>\n